Louise Thompson has revealed that she feels ‘less whole and human than she used to’ as she explained that she and Ryan Libbey are desperate to give Leo a sibling.
The TV personality, 35, has been documenting her experience on social media after revealing her plans to expand her family, after almost dying while giving birth to her son Leo in 2021 following an emergency caesarean.
After Leo’s birth, Louise went on to suffer with PTSD and post-natal anxiety due to her near-death experience and has since been diagnosed with Lupus, Asherman’s syndrome, suffered a second haemorrhage, and has also had a stoma bag fitted.
And now speaking on Fearne Cotton’s Happy Place podcast, she has explained that while she is trying to have another baby, there are ‘a lot of things that make me feel less whole and human’.
She said: ‘We have reached a point where my partner and I would like to give Leo a sibling because we are really close with our siblings.
‘And I have been left with some fertility, so I don’t have a period, and there are a lot of things that make me feel less whole and human than I used to be before.
Louise Thompson, 35, has revealed that she feels ‘less whole and human than she used to’ as she explained she and Ryan Libbey are desperate to give Leo a sibling
The TV personality has documented her experience after revealing her plans to expand her family, after almost dying while giving birth to her son Leo in 2021 (pictured with Ryan)
‘It’s not going to be an easy journey. I have decided to try and freeze some fertility while we try to continue to work on our mental space.’
Louise then explained that while she has been working through recovery for PTSD, Ryan has more worries than she about having another baby and is ‘clinging on to any stability’.
‘This has affected Ryan more than it has affected me, especially when it comes to growing our family’, she explained.
‘For him he is just like ”why would we risk anything, I cannot go through that again, I cannot be the sole parent again, I can’t afford to have some big shift that means that I am going to regress and be scary again and not know who I am or where I am and have panic attacks all the time”. So for him, he is clinging on to any stability.’
‘We’re so lucky because I survived, I’m here and I do have a good standard of living, I’ve also got the most amazing child, he’s so beautiful. But growing our family is our legacy and our right.
‘I should have been given the right to a safe and dignified birth, which would have allowed me to leave procreation to chance, where I could have sex with my partner and maybe have another baby.
‘We’re not alone in this infertility journey, our chances are just really different due to the scarring I’ve been left with.’
Earlier this week, she shared another update with her fans via TikTok, sharing the latest on her journey, which has involved speaking to lawyers about surrogacy.
Louise went on to suffer with PTSD and post-natal anxiety and has been diagnosed with Lupus, Asherman’s syndrome, suffered a second haemorrhage, and has also had a stoma bag fitted
And now speaking on Fearne Cotton’s Happy Place, she has explained that while she is trying to have another baby, there are ‘a lot of things that make me feel less whole and human’
She said: ‘What a day! From the news this morning that we only had four fertilised eggs out of 20 on day one that felt really heartbreaking to an appointment with a bank in Chelsea super dooper early to sort mortgage stuff, then jumping on a call with a brand to discuss a petite collection I’m bringing out.
‘Which is bringing joy to me, but even mentioning family expansion on all these calls when I know that I’m harbouring the truth of the fact that it’s going to be so much harder for us than people might even envisage on the outside. Why would we have infertility?
‘Obviously uterus poses a huge problem but there’s no reason why a 35-year-old with a high AMH and a partner who is practically the cover of Men’s Health why we should be having any issues. Trying to hold onto the good and the positive is sometimes hard.’
Louise then addressed an issue she has with blinking, which is related to her ongoing recovery from her severe health complications.
She said: ‘I think my blinking is back, which I really didn’t want. Because we are shooting a promo for something. Maybe the podcast is coming back. But I really wanted to come into it with a calm nervous system.’
Later in the video, Louise discussed the option for who will carry her baby if the IVF is successful, saying: ‘Lawyers are involved, so if you haven’t guessed that involves someone who will be carrying, so that means having conversations with people.’
Revealing she isn’t feeling as positive as she hoped, Louise said: ‘I thought by this point I’d feel a lot better. And now I’m taking these calls and I don’t even know what the outcome is going to be.’
‘And what the lag Is going to be, whether we have to keep doing more cycles or where we’re going to be.
‘There’s a link I’ve been sent to watch the embryos and I don’t even know what I’m looking at, even though I’m obsessive about stats and details and data and I’m smart and I love numbers and fucking stuff.
‘It’s just mad, I can’t problem-solve my way out of this one.’
Describing her struggle, she said: ‘I don’t have the bandwidth, well, I do, but I don’t have two hours to work this out and obsess over it.
‘Which is probably a good thing and I said to the lovely girls today who I was working with, who kindly bought me mini eggs that I devoured in half an hour and some colourful bunches of cheap and cheerful tulips, which I love.
‘I haven’t been able to work and then also focus on this, I said maybe the reason I didn’t mind about my last cycle doing it was because it was a first, but also with work the fertility thing doesn’t become my everything. And that thing you want so badly that you can’t have.
‘So maybe I need to just keep being really active on here and doing my work things and writing things. I think I’m back in a place where I’m going to have to lean on those little nuggets of joy to keep me going.’
